Rejection was one but there was hurt and much pain from my father who never cared about me and always was putting me down saying that I was a failure and that I should die and much other mental abuse.He told me a lot of lies and told me to keep my mouth shut cause he would make things worse and I would pay for it if I told on him.

So the lies contuniued and so did the self injury.Where I was without God I was lost in a hopless controlling situation as to where I was not even allowed to go to school my dad was very very controlling.

Well I in these times attempted suicide on numouors occasions cause I had nothing,I dident have Jesus I dident have any real friends and I had nothing really I mean my family argued and I was so tired of it all.

I got into a very big fight with my dad cause I wanted freedom from this hell on earth and I will not go into everything that went on at home but the point I am trying to get accross here is it was so bad and so hopeless.But when I let loose of the lies and told my mom what my dad had been saying to me all my life and she was in shock and when she asked my dad if he had said and done the things to me he denyed them.But mom knew the truth.He dident care about me but he wanted my mom to stay with him so he asked me what he could do to make it up to me and could I forgive him.Well I knew my mom always wanted to go to church so I asked that we could go to church.Well he said yes,and I hated church I hated people I hated everyone and everything,I was 17 and most of all my teen years were taken away I was bitter and the person I hated the most was myself.I got involved in a family cell or prayer group by my aunt who held them at her house,its just a meeting of ladys from the church and they study the bible together.I was looking for somthing to hold onto.

And Jesus said "Suffer all ye little children come onto me!"

Just as Jesus spoke to the children he is speeking to us today,for it is not God's will that any should perish.

Even in the most seemingly hopeless situation there is always hope.God promises us a purpose even if we feel worthless.

As self injurers we are often times rejected and labled as "crazy" or "deranged" not "normal!".

Most times even the church will not accept us and will call it a sinful act and some will go as far as saying that we will go to hell for this.
The truth is yes Self injury is a sin cause God tells us not to harm our bodys and that our bodys are the Temple of God!.

Well thats where saten comes in and lies to us and tells us that we deserve to hurt cause we are bad and crazy.That no one cares about us and "IF" anyone knew what we did then they would either put us in the crazy ward or reject us.The fear of rejection almost always keeps us silent.But I'm here today to tell you that its time to talk cause when we walk in truth He will set us free.If somone rejects you cause your a cutter than that person wasent a real friend and it is time to be who we are.We can be free of this by the grace of God.

As somone who was a cutter I know first hand that without God it is not possible to stop cutting.It is an addiction as drugs or alcohol or any other addiction.Like most of you I cut for more than one reason.