Well I met Jesus one night.I was going to kill myself one night when my parents were fighting I had a pannick attack again and I was on the internet with a friend and I told her I was going to kill myself that night and I was sorry I dident want to hurt anyone but I was tired of the pain and I deserved death and if I went to hell I would deserve it!
Well she said no don't do that! and I said whats left and she said cry out to Jesus he is standing in the back of you just cry out to Jesus.I said how do you know if Jesus is in the back of me I said theres no Jesus and she said cry out to him he is waiting for you,and being it couldent hurt.I said Jesus if you exsist then show me a sign.
And I felt a warm hand on my head and I was very scared cause I was alone in my room and dident know what to do,I was affriad and thought somthing evil was there,and although I dident really beleive in God cause I thought that if God exsisted then he wouldent let me suffer like this and for me it was easier to say God dosent exsist than to hate him.Or think he hated me.
Well Thats where "free will comes in".I will talk more about free will later on in this site.
Well I told my online friend what I felt and she told me not to fear that it was Jesus touching my head and to just call out to him to tell him what was wrong and everything,so I did and I just started crying and saying I want to die and stuff well I confided everything to him as I would a close friend,"you can have no better friend than Jesus"!the love that came over me was amazing I couldent even began to explain the love I felt.
I was so at peace and I felt warm inside and I knew there was hope.I asked Jesus into my heart and asked him to be the Lord or my life
